another hiatus

so I know I have done this before, but I am feeling it is time to take a little hiatus from the blogging world. As much fun as I have had.. and maybe some have enjoyed reading or viewing photos... i am feeling a bit overwhelmed in this blog world and needing to take some time off.... how funny that I can feel guilty for not blogging on a regular basis... pathetic I know





but this summer is just flying by, and with this new little guy soon approaching I know that life is going to just get crazier.





I have so enjoyed my outlet, and who knows i may need it back sooner then what I thought!





But until that point.. Good Bye Blog World.





I will leave with one last photo-- my Mayes family :) it is big and it is wonderful !!! And I am so proud to be apart of ALL of the families that are apart of me- MAYES,BRYAN, CLARK, CANADA,COONS


they are all amazingly wonderful and I am extremely BLESSED!!! (this is just the family that recently took a large group photo and so i have it available to post!!)
everyone was here, except my oldest David who got to spend the 4th with his friend on a lake (jealous) but that's the rest of us... and i love them all :)

GOOD BYE

Of Course I Cried

( this is David's Kindergarten Graduation)

(and this is his 5th grade Graduation)

You hear it all the time "Time Goes By SO Fast" which I always try to keep that in mind, yet why am I Always surprised whe something happens so fast in my life that it brings me to tears?

David graduated 5th grade, He is now no longer a kid in elementary school..... umm WHAT? I seriously don't know how it happened so fast.

I am so proud of this young man and truly look forward to seeing what God has in store for him (as well as Steve and I.... we are the ones parenting this man... Lord Bless Us ALL)

If I had a garden I would TOTALLY do this

How Cute Are These?!? They might be the reason I start one up... Next Summer of course

And since I DO have a bench that could use some pillows to brighten it up

What about these fun little gems

Now I just have to figure out away to earn some money to buy these beauties!! Anyone want to pay me to ....well give me a reason and I will let you know if I'm up for it?

Sometimes I forget people read my blog

I just want to say thank you to those who read my last post and put encourgaing words for me.

I am so grateful for the loved ones that God has blessed me with that are there beside me either in person or in spirit. It is your love and prayers in my life that makes the difference. Which in turn helps me to know that you feel my love and prayers for you!

I want to make one thing clear about my last post... I did not want to play the sorry little ole me card. And now regret writting that post, just a bit.

It was me expressing my feelings at the time, I was getting them out and starting afresh. But like my title expresses I sometimes forget that others read my blog.

I know that there is so much going on in the world that is far beyond my very worse day!

And I know that there are humans with pain that is more then I can imagine, and for me to struggle with my situation seems like a joke to some.

But Praise God that He does care about my struggles too, no matter how big or small, He does care and wants to be there for me, To Be My Provider!

I truly do appreciate the prayers and love, I just want to say that I do Praise The Lord for He has been Good to ME, in good times and in bad and I am in love with a God that does that for me.

And it's the good days, like today, that make me know that God is just as good in the bad days.

But maybe that is a fault of mine (or of Christians as a whole)

We don't talk about our struggles, our bad days, are days when we say "WHY GOD WHY?" ENOUGH

We all have them, we are all human, no matter what situation in your life you are going through you have issues that you question... but I (we) don't want to talk (blog) about those...because that would be self-centered?? that would be saying we don't believe God is good???

why do I not want to share that part of my life??

Why oh why is it so hard to share when we are truly struggling, or feel bad...

Or maybe it is just me that feels this way.. and whoever is reading this is on the other side of a horrible rambling session

so. sorry.

So now I am confused.... am i sorry for posting my struggles? or am I sorry that I don't share enough that I am human, and have them just like the rest of the human race? God made me human right?

He could have made me a bird, a fish, or a tree ..right??

but he made me human

so I am just like the rest of you.... normal, don't have it together, struggling in some aspect HUMAN

and i want to be okay with that

Wow... this post was a little all over, and not at all like I thought it would be...

Thank you God that you love the Human ME, not the spirit of me that will one day be by your side, but right now as you see me you love the Human ME

Some Days it's Hard, and some Days are even Harder

I don't want to repeat my "poor poor little pregnant me routine" But some days lately are very hard to get out of bed.

Everything hurts

I'm always still very tired

and the kids are not

They are whinning in a manor that makes me wish the day was already over and it was night time again

I head straight to the shower to escape and think of my reasonings for birthing children and why I ever did it in the first place?



Why did I want to put my body through this?

Why did I want to put my emotions though this?


Why can't I just take a peaceful shower without two precious kids crying and banging on the shower door for me to get out because they don't like to be away from me for more then 2.2 seconds



But then there are days - when i truly hear God speaking in his still small voice and telling what my purpose is


why I am here

why I do this

why the physical pain is worth it


it is a small voice and sometimes it's not even a voice... but the smile of my cohen, the giggle of my olivia, the kick of my baby boy, and the loudness of my david getting ready for school all by himself (PrAise God that He is capable of getting himself ready in the morning)



My purpose here is beyond what I can see or imagine, my purpose as their mom is to teach them about the Love of God

the Goodness of God

the Mercy of God

and most days i doubt my ability to do just that, God do I understand your Love, your Goodness, your Mercy?

if I don't then how do I show that to my children?

This is my purpose ... but I also think that it there purpose too... because right now they teach me in so many ways

God teaches me through them and for that I am forever greatful ( and I better learn quickly so God can stop blessing me with children to teach me things~!)

I've posted it before and I'm doing it AGAIN

To All The Mommies Out There- This One Is For You

A Child's Angel

Once upon a time there was a child ready to be born.
So one day she asked God: They tell me you are sending me to earth tomorrow but how am I going to live there being so small and helpless?
Among the many angels, I chose one for you.
She will be waiting for you and will take care of you.
But tell me, here in Heaven, I don't do anything else but sing and smile, that's enough for me to be happy.
Your angel will sing for you and will also smile for you every day.
And you will feel your angel's love and be happy.
And how am I going to be able to understand when people talk to me, if I don't know the language that men talk?
Your angel will tell you the most beautiful and sweet words you will ever hear, and with much patience and care, your angel will teach you how to speak.
And what am I going to do when I want to talk to you?
Your angel will place your hands together and will teach you how to pray.
I've heard that on earth there are bad men. Who will protect me?
Your angel will defend you even if it means risking its life.
But I will always be sad because I will not see you anymore.
Your angel will always talk to you about me and will teach you the way for you to come back to me, even though I will always be next to you.
At that moment there was much peace in Heaven, but voices from earth could already be heard, and the child in a hurry asked softly: Oh God, if I am about to leave now, please tell me my angel's name.
Your angel's name is of no importance, you will call your angel: Mommy
~Author Unknown~

Seriously what is this baby doing to me

This is what I had for lunch today- NOT NORMAL for me in the least. Normal is whatever the kids are eating, chicken nuggets, yogurt, bananas,chips,mac & cheese
You get the idea..but today's lunch included spinach, mushrooms, tomatos....What????



Different.. and it was SOOOO good...


Not sure what this baby is doing to me, but I LOVE it

Thanks little one!