Tuesday, April 27, 2010

How did it go by so fast??

So tonight my baby girl is sleeping in her new room tonight... UPSTAIRS while I am downstairs in my room next to an empty nursery... how did she go from this



to this




SOOOOO FAST


I have been soooo thrilled to get her big girl room ready for her.... and it's still in the works ( once auntie allie helps give her final touch to the room I will post pictures!)

But once she was up there and I walked down to her now empty room, with blue sailboats and blue baby toys ( yes I know I still have awhile before this boy comes to join our family but I am sooo not a procrastinater) I was soooo sad... how did it happen so fast? How do I go back and remember all the moments I never want to forget? I hope and pray that they stay with me forever but I know little by little they will fade, and new ones will be replaced.

Which is good


But there is still a part of me that is very sad tonight and will probably be for awhile- my sweeet baby girl is not so baby anymore- she stills lets me snuggle her, and kisses her face until she can't breathe, she still needs me toget her out of her crib, and change her diaper, she is still my baby girl even if her old room is empty and I can't hear her chattering in the room beside mine

change takes some getting used to

but i should be used to that

right....??

Sunday, April 25, 2010

My Interview

So I was interviewed by a blog site thingy.. guess I'm still not really sure what it is all about - but hey if you like my blog and feel like voting- you can do so right

HERE


And in case I end up winning anything--- a BIG THANK YOU in advance!!!!

Friday, April 23, 2010

So it's time to journal (beware of the rambling that is about to occur)

I started this blog to be my "diary" and it is ... sort of.... But I always tend to steer clear sometimes of how i'm feeling, what i'm thinking, and put up cute photos of my children, or funny stories, because those are always more exciting and positive to read......
But sometimes it's nice to learn that other people may feel like you do and you (meaning I) are not a crazy nut (even though i'm pretty sure 99% of the time i am)

I have been in such a funk lately, i don't feel depressed but i just don't feel right. it is discouraging. i felt like this for so long when i was really sick in the beginning of my pregnancy but then it got better, and now the funk is back..... there are things going on with this pregnancy that I would never discuss on a blog due to the fact that I don't want to be the reason you get sick and puke all over your keyboard.... (your welcome!) and i guess i am learning quickly that my mood and attitude is controlled by how i feel and i don't want to be this person at all.... I want to be the person that "considers it joy my brothers...." and at this point there is very little joy--- there is however a great amount of LACK OF MOTIVATION and desire to just be..... which i feel like makes no sense... i feel like i have ZERO motivation, yet i also feel that i have such an overwhelming feeling in my life right now, and this overwhelming feeling is paralyzing...does that make sense??
I wake up wishing it was bedtime.. not the best way to start your day... i get so tired of disciplining cohen... and boy oh boy are we in a total disciplining stage... that even when i know i need to be strong and hold to my parenting style, i am so exhausted and take the easy way out... which obviously then i feel guilty for, because really it gets us nowhere and then i have to start over from square one with him and it is even more exhausting the second time around....

i have a huge sense of not being content (in case that needed to be said any clearer)

I do love my life, my God, my children, my husband, my family and friends... and truly thank God for the amazing life he has given to me.... so why can't i actually enjoy it a little more?

so there is my random entry on my feelings... i think this post was so random that now i am even more confused about my feelings and my emotions then before i started writing.
so sorry for the waste of 5 minutes of your life... i will try and repay you back with a really great blog entry next time :)

Monday, April 12, 2010

Ahhh It's Monday




It's what I'm getting ready to watch.. what about you?

Friday, April 2, 2010

I knew it all along





And One Beautiful Princess!!!

Thursday, April 1, 2010

tomorrow is the dAy


OR



Hmmm..... we shall soon know!!!