Okay... so I feel like I should post something, I mean I don't really feel like I have posted in awhile and I am soo sure I am letting so many people down(?) Anyways you would think I would have something excited to talk about tonight-- But I don't I am sleepy and it is only 10:30... ahhh gone are the days when I would be going out at 10:30. and now All I Can Think About is going to bed.... And I couldn't be happier :)
And by the way if you were here right now with me in my house, you would get to see the most precious little ones asleep in their beds... why is it that little ones have such amazing peace when they sleep? I don't think I have this look to me when I sleep... and I KNOW Steve does not, but I think that has more to do with the distraction of the SNORING then anything else.
But ohh... if you were here you would be able to sneak a peek and enjoy smelling Olivia's sweet baby smell, and Cohen's little boy sweat (it is precious I promise) and David, Oh shoot I forgot I am supposed to run up and tell him good night, and I am down here blogging, well before I go upstairs to tuck him in, I have to tell you it is still so cute that David is 10 and he stills asks me to come up every night to "Huggy Kissey" him.
Awww... Still a little boy on the inside

GoodNight

Dear Angela

Wanna Come Play!!!

We will make you feel right at home :)

The Update!!

So since so many people have asked.... I didn't know that my "girls" were so popular :) Anyways I did decide to stop b.feeding earlier last week. And I was "okay" with it or so I thought. But by Friday I just did not have a peace about it and I started to wonder why I didn't have a peace because it felt sooo good to stop and I think I really wanted to. By Friday night I realized that it was God saying to me TRUST ME, He is bigger then any of my "issues" that I have and HE wants to show me his Power even in something so simple as b.feeding.
So after not nursing for 4 days I decided to wake up the next morning and give it a try and just 100% trust in Him and Him alone, not the 4 cups of Mothers Milk Tea that I was drinking each day, or the 19 herbs I was taking a day, but to trust in HIM.

So that is what I am doing, and so far it is working ( not that I should be surprised) but I am trusting and he is doing a miracle :)
I do know that is might not last forever but I know that when it does end, it will be because He is saying enough, and it is not just me deciding to end this.

Prayer would be greatly appreciated if you think of it

So there you go- that is my update for all you curious readers out there!!

Breastfeeding

Ohhh..... the blog I have been dreading to post. Soooo as of now I have been "breastfeeding" and I use the quotes because it has been such an on and off thing.
It has been a HUGE struggle for me so far... and she is only 9 weeks- I had hopes to make it to 6 months.... We will see if I make it to 10 weeks.
I struggled breasfeeding with Cohen and I told myself while I was pregnant that if it didn't work with Olivia that I would just stop and not stress out about it

HA HA HA... oh how I wish it was that easy and no stress was involved!!
But now things are back to the same ole feelings .
(on a side note I am typing this post while watching American Idol and I am soo distracted by the not so good singers .. I don't even like this show, so why am I watching it?!?!?!)
Anyways back to the breasts, and by the way I can't believe I am actually writting a post about my boobs.. It has just been consuming my thoughts for so long... so why not get it "out there"
into the blog world -- right? (and why does Paula stand while people sing??so annoying!)

So back to my stress with breastfeeding... I decided to stop completely this morning after I pumped last night for almost 20 min and got just a few drops -- it was CRAZY and DEPRESSING. so this morning I said ENOUGH STRESS.... and I quite..... now it is 10:00pm and I just got done pumping .... Ahhhh.. I gave in
I was in so much pain after about 24hours of "quiting" so I just had to give in for some relief.. and I actually got 4 ounces between the two (which is a HUGE amount for me)
Sooo now what?? Do I hold off for 24 hours and pump once a night for one bottle? Or do I just quite or do I keep trying

Ahhhhh..... why why why
Please someone just tell me what to do- Since I am sure you reading this are sooo interested in my breastfeeding plans :)

Oh I Love It!!

okay all you blogger experts

I am still not "with it" i guess in this blogger world- but it seems as if everyone is getting super cute blog backgrounds and I am still stuck with the basic kind you get to choose from when you first start your blog?
So please ... HELP .. advice... details on what to do.....

how do I get a super cute blog background??

Announcement!!

A lot of you will be getting this announcement by e-mail too, but i thought i would go ahead and post it fir all you blogger junkies out there!!
Steve and I have partnered up in real estate together. I got my license about a year ago with hopes to someday be helpful hands for my husband, and while I have been a little busy these days, I feel that God is leading me to help Steve out in any way that I can. I am not sure what God has in store and I am not sure how long God has me involved, but I do know that this is what I can for now!
I will probably be a little more structured about the real estate blog then my personal blog, but who knows really...??

So I would love it if you would check us out at

http://www.realestateforindianapolis.blogspot.com.

And if you would be so inclined to list us on your blog we would be ever so grateful

much love
Christina

Right Now

I have this moment.
Right Now.
And I want to make it good!